Wednesday, December 15, 2010

I Don't Wanna Be

I've go this senseless smile, this same simple
smile that everyday I fake.
I've got these "friends" who hear but don't listen;
Thats where they made their first mistake.
How can they say they know me, when
I do not even know myself?
How long can I keep my silenced secrets
That make this life a living hell?
I keep it all in, in my heavy head.
The dillusions, the images of me falling behind.
Some days I want to scream; but never cry; I DO NOT CRY.
No one thinks or knows anything of my befuddled mind.
You cannot claim to care until you comprehend
No one knows about how I drive myself miserably mad
But I wouldn't tell you if you asked
So why do I complain?
I am a woman of many words,
But some words I cannot say.

4 comments:

  1. Thank you. I extend the same invite to you.

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  2. I really enjoyed this. Probably bcuz I can relate to every word. Thank you for writing this. It made me feel not so alone....

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  3. I can really relate to this.

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  4. I'm glad you guys can relate, thank you for reading it. I was hoping someone would read this and somewhat understand what I feel.

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