IT'S EVERYONE.

I was born to be alone
So I can do what I need
And not cry because it's home,
But sing because I'm freed.
You lock it up.
You let it go.
When this gets rough
You let me sink so low

Too low to scream

Too low to cry
This blood, this knife
My only high.
You love but you don't understand
Because I am not who you see.
You are not strong, but you are a man.

For you pretend it's all over
And you can't keep your promises to me.

I'm losing this battle.

No self esteem

Dangerous daydreams

I don't want to go back.

I need you to set me free

Give me the confidence that I lack.

Haven't been eating
I've been staying up, thinking
About this desire I have to free fall
I'm shaking and screaming
If I go, you'll go with me
This is all for one

 

                            And one for all

I did my time, now I want out.

I'd like some legit proof of this so-called "God" that everyone talks about.
I'd like some explanations of this terrible stuff that is in this so-called "Bible."
I'm asking, I shall receive, right?
Are you there God?
I don't want to move a mountain.
I am just eager to know why you want to kill every teenager, every homosexual, every cheater, and every disrespectful person on the face of the planet.
And when it became okay to have slaves.
Thanks.

Oh boyfriend, don't you ever ever ever EVER go to bed upset with me. That's asking for a headache, asking for the knife.
I am a bitch sometimes, I'm not gonna lie. But don't think I mean it, baby. I'm here.

My TALENT SHOW was YESTERDAY. I lost my voice the day of the dress rehearsal, and I sounded like a complete American Idol reject :( it was so bad. So I was really scared I was gonna suck, but it wasn't so bad.
I also got to see my best friend Monica ♥ It was lovely, she gets it, I miss her dearly. I LOVE YOU! And I'm always here for you, don't you ever forget thatttt.♥

So many faces, never remembered
So many hidden truths
Never surrendered.

I just want to make you proud.

"Yearn

To close out

the ugliness, close

out the filthiness,

close out all light."

I'm sorry I can't be perfect! You just want and want and want and want, sometimes I feel like it would be easier to slip back down into my dark, quiet hole of depression.
I can't take everything all at once.
Good thing my head doesn't hurt, that's why I'm okay, because that was the one thing setting me over the edge. The one thing I couldn't handle on top of everything else.
I'M BEING A GOOD GIRL AND TUCKING AWAY THE BAD THINGS!


But you keep asking for more.