darlin', you are the only exception. ♥

lets say.
that there will never be a future.
that there is no end to today.
that no one wants to hear 'forever.'
and that everythings okay.
i dont want to know whats on the other side of the door,
because the second i figure it out,
i'll already be wanting more.
i want to hold your hand
from the summer till it snows.
we'll take a stand together,
they'll watch us as we go.
lets live every second like its the end
lets meet as if we have no past
lets speak as if we comprehend
lets pretend we dont know it will last.
we're happy simply being together;
that thing called time,
we dont remember.
why is everything set in stone?
lets say its not,
and just be alone. ♥




so she said whats the problem baby, i dunno well maybe i'm in love?

When i look into your eyes

I can see places ive never been.

When i see you, i see the love of my life,

My one, My only, A real best friend.

When i look into your eyes,

They're so familiar, and yet so new.

They are the most beautiful, amazing, heart-stopping shade of blue.

When i look into your eyes

You make me lose my way with words.

You have got me so hypnotized

Your 10 times more than everything i deserve.

When i really look at you,

I see my reason to be me.

The 'why' to what i do &don't do

My truth, My hope, My gravity.

When i look into your eyes

Its truly the most incredible thing.

There is nothing i need to hide,

because you are my everything.

♥

a night with just me, myself &i.

Thoughts; Stuck in my brain.
Thoughts; They wont stop spinning.
Thoughts; Causing too much pain.
Thoughts; The headache is winning.
Midnight; I'm still awake.
Midnight; And hours lighter.
Midnight; By far, to late.
Midnight; A morning brighter.
Insomnia; Alone in the dark.
Insomnia; Trapped in my mind.
Insomnia; A broken heart.
Insomnia; I am confined.

If i Were An Ant

If i were an ant

Everything would seem quite big.

A bird or a plant

Some dirt, a few twigs.

Every inch would be a mile;

Every hour like a year.

I would smile my buggy smile

Every single time I'd hear

Our song of the working ants.

I would laugh my buggy laugh

When we'd all begin to dance

To this rythm of

Feet hitting the ground

Seeds falling from the trees

The wind moving sand around

And streetlights turning green.

If i were an ant

I'd be tiny, I'd be small.

I would live within the grass

Each blade would apear 10 feet tall

I would be happy as could be

as i sang our working song,

Till someone carelessly misstepped

and then squish-

I would be gone.

my pen to yr paper.

Let me show you what I do.

i love you.

i need you.

please dont leave me.dont be mad or dissapointed.

i'll try, i really will.

but i cannot take you being gone.

no matter what i promised.

so please

dont make me do this alone.

i'm sorry

i'll attempt to give it up for you.

but if things get worse before they get better,

then this will be harder than i thought.

i dont know what to tell you.

or anyone, actually.

because you were the only one i could ever talk to.

and i honestly dont know how i'll live without you.

you know me so well.

and i cant go on without you.

i said i wouldnt HURT for you.

and i wont be able to lie to you.

but i never said i wouldnt cry for you.

and i now i just feel even more at fault

because your only going to be more appauled about the tears.

im sorry.

im sorry.

im sorry.

im sorry.
im sorry.
this isnt working for me at all.

i'll just wait a little longer before i go do what i said i wouldnt.

i'll try to make it my last time, though.

for you.

DONT CRY.

Thats not what i wanted at all.

nothing is going right.

im sorry.

oh no.

i am so sorry.

i had to do it.

like i said, you know me to well.

i dont want to tell you i did.

i never want to talk about it again.

EVER. with anyone.

im anxious to know what your going to say....

i love you.

i need you.

holy first blog!

hey everybody. :)im meaghan.  this is the first of many blogish things. woo hoo!  this is a bit about me:

i write.
my favorite color changes by the day (today is yellow.)
ive never seen titanic.
i live, breath, and pee music.
i have a boyfriend.
i like sports; particularly basketball &volleyball.
i stay up late.
i dont like dressing up.
i love the rain.
my favorite animals are penguins!
my favorite season is fall.
im a freshie.
i dislike the color pink.
my favorite book is 'its kind of a funny story' by ned vizzini.
i have a stuffed animal dragon named shep zitler, after a holocaust survivor. lol.
my favorite movies are shutter island and inception.
i hate hate HATE crying.
i live in my converse sneakers.
im on twitter, www.twitter.com/HelloMeaghan
and also youtube, www.youtube.com/IllSpeakNow
i think im done for now. check me out. :)
later dudes.