You are not just a wave, You are part of the ocean.

"If you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

 I mess up sometimes. I do. I am not a role model, I am not a parent, I am not a celebrity who millions eagerly follow. I am just a frightened girl trying to figure things out for myself. As I watch, I see things. Friends falling down around me. Love burning and raging and trying to hold me. Social status mattering less and more, more and less. People of all shapes and all sizes and all colors and all mindsets with their own problems and their own issues and their own friends and their own lovers and their own unique way of doing things. I'm looking for my own unique way of doing things.

I'm sorry I made you think this is okay.
I'm sorry I made you think I'm ok.
I'm sorry I made you laugh when I needed to cry.
I'm sorry for everything.

 I see that I impact people. I have a wall, I built it within me because I thought we all need to keep things to ourselves. You seemed so stable, you knew how to help yourself, you dug yourself out of your own hole. But your falling back in again. I need you to talk to me. I'm here. I'm always going to be. You need to remember that you and I are inseparable. That you and I, are the same. That you and I feel the same feelings and I'm here to let you know that. I made you do this, understand that was not my intention. I am guilty. Do not tell me I was not your cause, I did not tell you no. Please. Let us take down my wall, and fill in the cracks in yours. I'm always here.

You ought to know who you are.